Date: Monday, August 19 , 2024
Medicine: Huachuma
Dose:Full cup of “black” medicine
Experience
This is a bit stronger than nuke, but not chaotic. The noise of the river has been bothering me lately (the stronger the medicine gets the more my auditory “vibrations” hit me and the white noise of the river amplifies it) so I opt for a spot back in the woods away from the river. At Rita’s suggestion I also opt not to go into the river because I don’t enjoy it and it could be contributing to my chaos.
While this medicine is stronger and more peaceful, I still can’t relax in it and enjoy it like everyone else says they do. John (one of last weeks 3 clowns, the only one who decided to stay for a while) walked up to me and gave me a dandelion puff ball to make a wish on. I asked him if I was supposed to be enjoying this and he said “yes, aren’t you?” I said “no” and he looked at the dandelion and said “well maybe that’s your wish.”
Later I went for a walk through the field. When I returned to my spot, I found a small gift bag on my mat containing a small stone. I knew it was from John and the thoughtfulness of it again sent a wave of emotion through my heart. He explained that evening that it was a rose quartz heart stone and that it was meant for opening hearts. John is a very kind person.