Date: Monday, August 26, 2024
Medicine: Huachuma
Dose: Cup of “beautiful” medicine
Experience:
Pookie Day!
Sergey switched to what he calls beautiful medicine. A good friend who is one of the guests spent the last session with a teddy bear he borrowed from Sergey’s 6 yo daughter named Pookie (the bear, not his daughter). He offered Pookie to me for the day, feeling I needed it.
This was an amazing day. No chaos and lots of sunshine. I started by rereading my journal to this point and embracing everything I have accomplished so far.
Another guest who was leaving gifted me a bottle of Parika rapέ this morning. I have only used this in closing ceremony so far and since it contains a little dmt it boosts the medicine. At about noon I had Sergey give me a couple of blasts of it and it enhanced the whole day.
When I returned to my spot, John, who is a very empathetic guy, left me a note:
Say “I love you Kevin” today – try it on and see how it fits.
Much love,
J
P.S. You are so very deserving of love my friend
This hit me very hard and sent me in a good direction.
I sat in the field with Pookie and used him as a surrogate for each person in my life, giving them a hug and thinking about them. I thought about myself as a child and gave him a well needed hug. I also thought about my parents as children and what I know of their lives. I gave them well needed hugs as well.
For the first time in years I felt actual love for my mother.
Experienced overwhelming gratitude to everyone in my life, huachuma, Sergey, and Pookie.