Date: Monday, July 22 , 2024
Medicine: Huachuma
Dose: Full cup of peaceful medicine + extra gluck
Experience:
Felt out of place today and sensed that I didn’t belong. Felt again like a silly old man sitting in the woods using drugs and wondered what I was doing here. Felt very lonely and disconnected.
Realized next day that I was homesick. I missed Rita and my home and my pets. Sergey pointed out that this was when I started thinking of our recently purchased house as my “home”, and not just another house (we’ve had many).
Note: This was supposed to be the first day Rita was joining me but her flight was canceled because the airlines pushed out a bad security fix. She was discouraged and unhappy when we talked in the morning and questioning whether or not she should cancel. I’m sure this carried through into my ceremony.