Date: Wednesday, September 4, 2024
Medicine: Huachuma
Dose: ¾ Cup of “New” medicine + extra sips of Sergey medicine + parika
Experience:
Stuck day. Can’t make any progress. I picture myself as both a hammer and an anvil banging against each other but not actually working on anything. A hammer and anvil aren’t supposed to touch, they’re supposed to have something be shaped by their striking. It’s very strong medicine and difficult to walk back.
My wife Rita will be leaving on Saturday to go home and I’m supposed to stay 2 more weeks. She thinks that because I’m stuck these last few sessions I should give it a rest and go home with her, trying again some time. Another long-time guest and Sergey intervene and talk about negativity and commitment. We decided I can stay.
During integration/sharing in the evening another guest talked about his experience. He realized that something happened when he was 1 ½ yo that hurt him, and he feels like that 1 ½ yo has been inside him ever since sabotaging his life. He named it “Chuckey”.