Date: Monday, July 29 , 2024
Medicine: Huachuma
Dose: Full cup of peaceful medicine
Experience:
Talked with Sergey about his family and the love in it vs how I was raised, and the progress I am making. This got me thinking about transformation.
I remembered a woman I knew when I was about 10. I had a paper route and she was nasty to me all of the time to the point I would pay for her paper to avoid collecting from her sometimes. She disappeared for a few months and when she came back she apologized to me, a kid, for how she was. She said she was sick but she was better now.
I started thinking about my dad and how he was in a soul crushing corporate job for 37 years. How when he retired at 57 he actually flourished, found hobbies, and actually took an interest in what I was doing. We became friends. I spent time remembering my dad in life for the first time in years rather than in the death I took part in. I remembered when I loved him as a child.
My dad was a good man. He did his best in life and he owes me no apologies and there is nothing I need to forgive him for. I miss him and I love him. This is the first time in probably 20 years I have managed to feel this way. This is a good and powerful day.