Date: Friday, August 9 , 2024
Medicine: Huachuma
Dose:⅞ cup of “nuke” medicine
Experience:
Spent the day trying to meditate and turn the left side of my brain off and just be in the moment. Focusing on my breath, the sensations and vibrations in my body, and the sounds of the river. Every time an intrusive thought would come up I would catch it and audibly go “shhhhh” to myself. This is probably the closest I have come to actual meditation.
The evening before I showed Rita a video I made for her 50th birthday with 2 of our daughters. It was a slideshow of her life set to fun music. Today Rita said the video made her whole day. She re-lived much of her life and even experienced self-love. Hearing her say that sent a genuine wave of emotion through my chest. This is the first true “happy” feeling I have had in the medicine.
Amazing day.