Date: Friday, August 16 , 2024
Medicine: Huachuma
Dose:Full cup of “nuke” medicine
Experience:
3 times again in the river because I think I should, but I don’t enjoy it.
Today is the 8th anniversary of my mom’s death and I expected to spend more time with it. But the day is chaotic and disconnected again. A real mess. I discussed with Sergey, that I’m not vibing with nuke. I call it un-meditation. He agreed to change it for next ceremony.
Message of the day: I want peace and I don’t enjoy chaos. This is when I begin to realize what ayahuasca had been telling me.